Gosh since ages, I last update me blog. been to darn busy with work and personal life. So the new year has finally dawn on us, 2008. Have you set your new year's resolution? I have not and maybe I don't even care about it. I do trust the Lord will bring me where he wants me to go ...
But hmmm I started year 2008 on a rough patch, things are different now as a consequence of year 2007. I'm confused and blinded by the world. My hunger and thirst for materials and ... is again beginning to devour me even at this time penning down these words ... If only someone out there or up there, hear my cry ... please do reach out and save me from damnation.
I have yet again, put myself into danger even though I keep reminding myself that this is the path where evil breeds and manifest beyond imagination. Yet, yet again, I CHOSE to walk this road, and now here I am again entangled in a web of deceit, torment, and worst of all sin. I am walking into a path that I know I will regret in years to come and bring shame to myself, but yet again because of my stupidity and desire I chose the unrighteous road. Stakes are high, I am gambling my life and my future on a poker game where the devil is the banker and he never loses.
I am torn between reality and my desire, when your brain says no but your heart says yes. Why oh why we humans of rationality and emotions have to be placed in such crossroads. Temptation is high my friend !!! I know my wrongs but I'm persistent. How can anyone lead me back into the path of light? "It" has etched itself on me, fused with emotions, only allowing a small portion of conscience to remind me that THIS IS WRONG !!!!
Help me, help me ... I am being shredded to pieces by my emotions, where am I suppose to walk? WHERE? SHOW ME LORD ....
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